The Good, Bad & the Ugly...

THE GOOD:
Our wedding was PERFECT! It was such a good day! All my family and friends were there. Joel & I looked AWESOME. However you wouldn't know it from the pictures our photographer took. WORST PHOTOGRAPHER EVER!!!!!! She wasn't proactive in taking pictures, her and her husband both stood in the hallway until they were prompted to take pictures & after that she posed every pic in front of a WINDOW!! Our wedding was a brunch style wedding from 11am-2pm. Every pic is so washed out, and she chopped the heads off in the pics as well, we dont have any pics of family, grandparents, even Joels sisters. We dont have 1 pic. Not even 1 pic of Joel and I close up that our entire heads are in & looking at the camera. Here are my top 5 pictures...





THE BAD:
Here are the worst 5 pictures LOL....(Hey at least I can laugh now. I have lost sleep and cried many tears over this....)
WHY would she send this pic????

Most pics she took she chopped heads.....

Couldn't she turn the camera? Zach face is chopped at the bottom and Joels head is chopped at the top. Nobody is even looking at the camera. WTF?????????????? plus the window? =( so amature.

What is she trying to do here?????????

WTF?

THE UGLY:
I wrote her a letter saying how devestated I was and how sad the quality of the pics made me. her response was "Sorry you didn't like the pictures. I spent over 60 hours editing them (WTF??? she must really suck at editing) We are not a Traditional Photography team. My appologies" WHAT? So cutting off heads and blurring out images she didn't originally want in the pic is their STYLE of photography??? REALLY??? I haven't paid for her service, and im debating how to handle that right now. I asked her for the RAW images. I can only hope she edited the pictures to chop heads off and I can salvage some of the pics from this day. I cannot replace the damage she has done. Right now since the wedding was only 3 weeks ago I can remember how special the day was...but 20 years from now, the pictures will be all we have left. SO SERIOUSLY SAD!!!! I dont even feel like printing any to make an album. =(

I AM!!!!!!!

I just had an epiphany. I really am Khloe Kardashian. Except for the being rich part, and the super tall part. She is under constant scrutany from the media and her mom for being "big" and so am I (media=social groups). My mom has made comments to me like "Youre not fat, just on the verge" "If you could just lose 15 lbs..." I think I just look bigger next to my sister because she is so small. Everyone in my family got the same body type and are all little. My mom herself is 3 inches taller than I am but I only weigh 10lbs (sometimes less) more than her. Its just because Im shorter. UGH UGH! Also Im more well endowed in the chest area. Im sorry but those aren't exactly weightless........just saying.
Here is Khloe with her sisters. They are all hot. But doesn't she look huge?

um. Khloe is a size 6. Her sisters are a 0 and a 2.
And here I am with my sister

I dont know what size she is but seriously........I look so fat next to her. Ughh!
At least I know other people can relate to me. I hate this. hahahaa. This shit is getting old! I always feel like Im not good enough because of my dress size. Really? Are we not past this? I haven't been in High School for over 10years.

Honeymoonin!

We went to CANCUN for the honeymoon! It was perfect! We just lounged on the beach the whole time...like really. We will be going back next year! Here is a photo montage of the honeymoon because I am entirely too busy/tired/lazy/uncreative to write about it! We had a GREAT TIME!









Ps My name is Mrs. Brooke Landsaw now. How weird is that?! Going to take some getting used too! haha. But I like it =)

Tooth be gone.

So lemme make nice about my rude off skelter post the other day. I still am pissed about not getting Unemployment but I did get a job today.
All thanks to Joel. Its at his work, we wont actually be working together. He is in a different dept plus different buidling LOL. We wont even see each other. But I am happy that he reffered me. I know they really like him & so they offered me a job on the spot. SO I guess something was handed to me... because I know someone in a high place!
I also had been so stressed planning the wedding. I know people do that for their job but I think they are loony. I didn't want to talk to a florist, Cake baker, photographer. Joel had his passport expedited and by expedited I mean they denied it twice and he had to get a new birth certificate issued, before we finally recieved it today. Overnighted. We booked a trip to Cancun, and cancelled it because we didn't know if we would get his passport or not? Well we got it 2 days before the wedding. Hence another reason I was pissed and stressed. But this one worked out ok. Just seemed like everything was spiraling out of control on me for a minute.
& Zachie lost his first tooth!!!!!!!! Unfortunantly he lost it at Dads so I wasn't able to play tooth fairy yet. But doesn't he look cute with it missing?!

Hes getting so big! I LOVE IT!

One Week..

Next week at this time I will be Mrs. Brooke Landsaw! How weird is that?! I think it is Crazy, Exciting, Fun, Scary, Every emotion. But I love it!! Its so hard to blend a family together. So many people are divorced and have step kids and step parents, half siblings. My parents are still together and I have 1 sister. I knew it wouldnt be the brady bunch but it sure has been a rollercoaster ride. You'd think it would be easier with 4 parents raising each child, but I find it more difficult actually because there are so many more people to consider, schedules, equal times, money. We are all doing great though & I am so happy! I know I am where I am suppose to be...

Looks as though I will never get a brother. Joel is the youngest of 6 kids. 4 girls & him. He does have a brother but he lives in NJ so I dont forsee seeing him all that often unfortunantly. And here is just a funny tidbit. My old father in laws name was Gary and that is Joels dads name also. His old mother in laws name was Julie and that is My moms name!!! yep. It was meant to be! Mwhahaha!

You may notice at the top of the blog I changed my title to PB&J from Miss Brooklyn. It is still my blog but I want to incoorporate my family into it. Miss Brooklyn was FUN that was the single me! I thought of PB&J obviously because my name starts with B and Joels, J & we are Prestigious, Hello?! But earlier I got this text: "You are the apple of my eye, the cream of my crop, the peanut butter in my pb&j....I LOVE YOU." If anyone knows me I am obsessed with Peanut Butter! I know that text is a bit cheesy but I am cheesy and Im glad Joel can be the Wine for my Cheese ;)

Here's to the next step!!!!

Vent ...Venting... Vented.

This may not be the place nor be associated with the proper language/grammar. But some things need to be said.
I AM SO SICK AND TIRED of people getting handouts. Handouts in Trips, Jobs, Accessories. Celebs who have money never have to buy anything they want. It is just given to them because they are pretty. People just doing things for other people. Knowing people in low places, high places. Getting this for free or that.
I have NEVER gotten a handout. Never gotten something for nothing. I have worked my ass off for everything that Zach and I own. Ive had a job since I was 14yrs old, taking 6 weeks off work when Zach was born. Now I get in a bad situation with a "friend" and im unemployed. It appears that I have no experience to work in the field I have been working in for the past 7 Years and I am starting back at point A. Then you see all these people who have never even had a job and I feel judged by them. People who have family money, or who work for their family or a friend. Who had no business even doing the job but was given the job because they "KNEW" someone. I feel like a failure to myself and my son. I have never paid bills late, thats just not something that I do. My credit score could not be any higher. The Govt helps all sorts of people who take advantage of the system left and right. I never applied for CHIP or food stamps or any other program when I was a single mother. And believe me I was QUALIFIED for it. I didn't apply because I hate the govt and their way of fixing things. I wanted to "fix" what was wrong myself. I have been unemployed now for 2 months. I applied for unemployment... FIRST THING I HAVE EVER ASKED FOR. Because I deserve it. The way things happened with my work... believe me I didn't deserve to be fired. And what happened? I was DENIED. The GOVT wont help a mother who is honestly looking for a job daily...who isn't trying to take advantage of the help. Who is asking because I honestly need the help and it has nothing to do with laziness. Thanks a lot. The money I should be getting is going to some Imigrant probably (and I am not racist, thats just how things are) But I can't say that I am surprised. The govt wont help before its already too late. That is what is wrong with this Country and this is why the Economy is bad. Everyone just wants handouts.
I am getting married next Saturday. That is the only blessing in my life right now. I am so sick of trying for nothing and doing my best to accomplish NOTHING. I am not trying to have a bad attitude I am just really frustrated. Last night at Zachs game we left his shoes in the dugout on accident and I had to send him to school today in his cleats because they were the only shoes he had here. Is it really a big deal? No. But believe me I started stressing about buying him new shoes because I dont have money for that. My car needs gas, All this wedding planning isn't over. I still need Money for the reception, odds and ends. & the Honeymoon..... I feel we really need to go on a honeymoon because I didn't go for my first marriage & truly both of us need to get away. I feel I am entitled to go on a honeymoon. My last Vacation was Vegas over 3 years ago.....Yet, I feel like im Irresponsible for going on a honeymoon when I dont have a job. Im sick of always trying to do the right thing. Right for who? I am sick of always feeling judged by everyone. I can't even go over to my own parents in a sleevless shirt because my mom will eye the tattoo on my shoulder. I just really need a break in a big way. My head is going to explode!!!!!!!!!

& the cherry on top my kitty is mean. I took her in to get her fixed and turns out she is already fixed. Spaying her was suppose to mellow her out. The whole time I was typing this blog she is jumping up at me and using my leg as a claw sharpener. If i pick her up she bites me and she hates to be pet. She just likes to be around people, but dont touch her. She made me bleed. WTF!
Case in point......

Last night I was in the bathtub & she came in there. Looked at me like this THE WHOLE TIME! I must be a sad sight! hahahaha. Anyway I hope she starts being nice bc I could use a snuggle.

The big K!

Zach is almost done with KINDERGARTEN! I am so excited about the fact that he is almost in FT school. Not to be a bad mama... Kindergarten has been good! Zach says he liked Preschool better because they had snack time! haha!
This week he had to dress like a clown one day. It is so hard to find a clown costume when its not halloween. Who knew? I tried to buy an oversized girl shirt at the DI that had colored polka dots on it to make my own costume but he wasn't having any of that "GIRL CLOTHES..Bleghhh"! Turns out we turned him into a "Sports Clown" and he loved it! He looked so cute!




Silly Monkey wore that wig all day! Haha.......
The next day was Crazy Hat day. I had him color on paper and made paper airplanes then just pinned them to his fadora hat. He was stylin!

It was super windy that day... and on the way to the car one of them blew off of the hat and flew away. I thought it was hilarious but he almost started crying. His hat was ruined. I had to fix it before we got to the school!!!!
I love how Smart my lil man is getting!

New Job!

So after my job debacle last month at ARUP where I was FORCED to resign. I had 2 interviews and got hired on at Myriad Genetics. I start tomorrow! Man, that was almost too easy. I am very blessed to find a job so quickly in this economy. ARUP is paying me a severence of 40hrs. Therefor I will only miss 1 week of pay! Haha!
I am so nervous to start this job! I haven't started a new job since 2006! And it will be a change for me because it is a NORMAL job. NORMAL hours. I also haven't worked NORMAL HOURS at a job since... 8 years ago! I am super excited. I will have weekends off. This is the first job ive EVER had that I get weekends off!!
The job gods must love me.

I'M ENGAGED!

2nd times the charm.... Haha Jake my X husband can suck it! I think he thought I would remain single because Its been a whole 5 years almost 6 since our divorce. Every once in a while he would throw into our conversations "you will find someone......" as IF im so lonely being single and hate myself? Jake please! I really had a great time being single. I was single for 2 1/2yrs after we got divorced and had no intention of commiting. After that I felt I was ready and got serious with someone and it sucked! then I got into another relationship right after...and we wont talk about that. Then I met Joel! He was one of those guys that I was drawn to. The whole 1 1/2 years we've been together now I have seen him mad maybe 2 times. He is so good for me in everyway! Plus he calls me on my bullshit. Thats something NOBODY ever has done with me... I almost thought I didn't have any. Hahahaha! plus he SOMETIMES laughs at my jokes. Sometimes.
Anyway heres some pics of the proposal, and if you are on facebook. Sorry you have to see them again!




I was so surprised.. we just got back from going out to dinner. I wasn't expecting it, he had his sisters come in & do it while we were gone, Champagne, Rose petals & Candles.. Im way too girly but this was the BEST. Truthfully we have been talking about eloping for a few months now and even picked a weekend in April that we wanted to go. (yea I know. Eloping is suppose to be spur of the moment. But we have 2 KIDS!!!!) we went and got rings but I kind of thought we would just elope and not really have an enagement.... but we still need rings! We dont want too formal of an affair seeing as how its both of our 2nd marriage. So Joel did so GOOD!!! I dont rememeber what he said on his knee but I wish I did because it was perfect!
Im so happy with him... and so blessed! & So EXCITED to start this new chapter! I am inheriting a daughter in this as well. Zach & Zoey are close in age. This should be interesting!!

CHEERS TO US AND OUR LIFE TOGETHER!


*DISCLAIMER...DO NOT go make lovie for an hour in your room with candles lit all over on your carpet. It WILL start a fire! Yes it did... but we caught it before it got too out of hand!!!

Z is funny!

My little one is doing AWESOME at reading! Yesterday he got a new book to read. It was about a dog going to the Vet. Last night while reading it he asked "Whats a vet?" I told him "An Animal Doctor" So tonight while reading the sentence "Rag went to the Vet" Zach said "Rag went to the Animal Doctor" LOL!!! Now I am not so sure he is reading anything at all... Maybe just memorizing the books! :-/
It was cute though!
His new thing is making up jokes...He actually does ok at it considering he is 5. Here is one of them...
"What do you get when you cross a Porcupine with a Strawberry?" "Strawberry JAM" What tha? how he even comes up with this stuff is beyond me!!!!
Another funny thing he has said recently was when we were driving in the car I mentioned that I was exhausted! He replied "You should get some 5 hour Allergy"
Hahaha! Ughh? I burst out laughing and asked if he meant 5hr Energy? because I didn't want allergies. He said "Yeah mom..... I saw it on TV" Good going TV... Owell He actually had the right idea!! It was hilarious.

I LOVE THAT BOY!!!!!!!